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A quick reminder on how to find me because I would never actually disappear from the internet. ^-^

:rose: Facebook
:rose: Tumblr

I am also open for commission, so feel free to contact me for details. :heart:

xxx
Naomi
  • Listening to: L'Arc~en~Ciel - XXX
  • Playing: Skyrim (I KNOW)
  • Eating: Burnt roasted pistachios
Hello!

So after a lot of thinking, I decided just to leave some of my works here on dA, but I am still not going to use it to update anymore. I think I made the right decision when I said I'm leaving.

At the moment you can find my artworks on my Tumblr.  

I also have created my own Facebook page so please do feel free to drop by some likes, hehe! ♥ It will be much appreciated! ^u^

Have a good time ♫
- Naomi
  • Listening to: Eien ni Amuro - Kou Ikeda
  • Reading: yaoi manga(s)
Hi!

Since I'm setting up my own website, I'll just concentrate on that and I don't think I'll use my dA account to upload my works anymore. But to be honest, I don't know when my website will be completed either (TT v TT)  but please look forward to it!

I'll probably still use this account to lurk around though, so.



Be well!

Naomi



PS. My artworks can be found on my Tumblr in the mean time.
  • Listening to: Meguriai - Daisuke Inoue
  • Watching: MS Zeta Gundam
  • Playing: Shin Megami Tensei - Strange Journey
Hello!

The second edition of Mystery Kitchen house party series, this time accompanied by 2416 zine launch!

DATE: July 2th, 2011

VISUALS by:
. Caves
. Andro Kristian
. Hans Setiadi
. Jonathan Ronaldo
. Michael Killian
. Naomi Dame aka ~varziel

SOUNDS by:
. SVRA
. Vague
. The Brian Slade Stardust
. Duck Dive x Jirapah x Caves
. The Perplexity of StamatisDesiree

For more details (or, flyer & location map) please visit here on my LJ:
[link]

Do come! c:
  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Listening to: Chara - Heaven
  • Playing: Shin Megami Tensei - Strange Journey
Why am I a premium member?
Nevermind, I've noticed that the lovely ~devouredex gave me this prepaid Premium account; thank you very much! :blowkiss: Yay yay yay :heart:



Edit: Because I'm lazy, I'm posting two different topics in an entry.

Was tagged by ~mobilmasuk ; It's been a while since I do something like this!

The rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. You must post 10 things about yourself in your journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons in the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.
Here goes.
1.
I love the internet. Like WOAH.

2.
I also love cats. Have 11 in my house and they are all sweet.

3.
Right now my favorite color is yellow.

4.
I'm currently training myself to use my left hand. I'm still learning how to use chopsticks with it without straining it too much.

5.
Have been told that I am a genius (multiple times!) and a hyperactive kid (also multiple times!). I'm pretty proud of the second.

6.
My personal record for sleeping is about 16 hours. I kind of want to beat it.

7.
My personal record for staying up is about 60 hours. If my memory serves.

8.
I'm thinking of buying a new cellphone for my birthday, which is coming soon.

9.
So far the greatest day in 2010 is the day I went to see Placebo's concert: February 16th, 2010. I will never forget that day. I would very much like a second chance.

10.
My all-time favorite country is Japan for various reasons, and I still want to go there.

I'll add the 10 users tomorrow. I'm currently interpreting my friend's dream now haha! ADDED.

:iconatreist: :iconeyehaterain: :iconecchi777: :iconalbakaziy: :iconkyonkyonsama:

And I don't know who else I shall tag OTL. Well, just feel free to tag yourselves and get in to the game.

Seeya und Godspeed-!
  • Mood: Wow!
  • Playing: Dragon Quest Heroes: Rocket Slime
  • Eating: With my left hand
  • Drinking: Water
It's raining again tonight. Looks like it's going to go on like this.
Which is bad, because it means my laundry won't dry within a night anymore.


Been going out a lot with my Mom lately.
I like going out with her, because she's funny. We can talk at ease, about almost anything-- I can even talk about
Sakurai's hot body or Nino's lovable screeches,
or why she thinks that Matsujun never looks bad,
and why Ohno is so cute while Aiba's giggle is contagious,
or about dogs and jellyfishes, about crochet and
the games I'm playing on my DS
-- almost anything.

I love my mom.
Two days ago she caught a cold; hopefully she'd get better soon.


Despite that,
I'm feeling rather lonely lately. Well, I do feel so every once in a while.

At times like those, I often try to
tone it down, so it wouldn't be very intense or pushing.
Sometimes quietly, sometimes not- which may lead to impromptu soliloquy with my bedroom walls.
They talk back when they feel like it.

I like talking to myself.
I like talking to my pillows, to my DS, to my blanket, to the photographs stuck with papertapes on my bedroom wall, to the ceiling.
And I listen to their responses very well.

I do listen, and I do relate.
I'm trying my best in doing so. Because mostly human beings can't.

I can relate to the air around you, what you feel, what you unconsciously need.
Everybody can do that, actually.
Just listen- you'll see.


My language skills are deteriorating, I believe. Lately I don't use them much.
I have this love/hate relationship with language. I am very intrigued by it; so vague yet so powerful, and in spite of that
I hate using it--because it twists, it manipulates, it provokes.
Sure it can be good, but most of the times, the result ends in things like
inability to listen
or, in other words,
deafening.
Sometimes worse:
blinding.

I don't want to be blinded. I don't want to blind anyone either.
That's why I feel rather than speak, and I touch rather than advise.
(Many finds that awkward; many hates that too: they flinch against my touch because they misinterpret it.
Touch is definitely the best language.)


I can't focus on only one thing.
I like many things, and I want to know many things, and I am interested in many things.
To some it may be considered as inconsistency.
Well, that's true- I am
on a flux, though sometimes irregular,
moving in flashes of light
and sometimes calm and steady as a forest.
Like tidal wave.

I love many things, too.
You, for example. You who are reading this.

I'm not kidding.
I love easily, and I do love incessantly once I am in it. Even though you are a total stranger, an animal, a leaf,
anything.
But you see, I'm bad at expressing myself with words. It's really, really difficult.
Oh I wish I were eloquent. !

So if I could,
I would give you total strangers hugs and maybe kisses,
'cause I love you. I love you like that.


I wish I could kiss my own lips.

Or of course, have someone else do it
with feeling
and sincerity.
But that doesn't happen very often, too.
Perhaps I'm not pretty enough to deserve someone else's feelings?
Or perhaps I'm not kind enough to deserve someone else's touch?
What could measure them? Society?

Who knows, baby, who knows.


I care about a lot of things. About you and him and her and me.
I do care about myself, too. That's only natural.
I want to hear what people think of me,
what part of my outfit looks good today,
what they like about me,
and why they put up with me.
Also,
why don't they say anything,
do they listen to me speaking in whispers,
or do they listen to me at all.

Sometimes I need someone to love me incessantly, too.
Someone to stand by me, to hug me with no apparent reason,
to ensure me that I am still wanted somehow.

I feel alienated, most of the time.
But I try to commune, to unleash myself--
perhaps I'm running too fast, or creeping too slow, or mutter too softly.
I don't know.

But I know sometimes I want attention.




One day, far from today
will you still remember me?



Because I won't forget you. Even though you're a stranger. Even though we've never met before. Even though we only communicate by the computer screen.




It's a promise.
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Watching: Tengoku de Kimi ni Aetara
  • Playing: Dragon Quest IV
  • Drinking: Instant coffee
hi, i'm open for commissions. i'd do anything ranging from small illustrations, t-shirt illustrations, tattoo design, greeting cards,  anything :> feel free to browse around my gallery.

just message me/ leave a comment/ anything.

:heart:
naomi
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Playing: dragon quest iv chapter 4
i know i shouldn't feel that way,
but there are times when i couldn't help it.

i take a deep breath in, and then let it out slowly,
slowly
until i forget.

then it comes crashing again, like a loop around my neck, ready to tighten and cut off the flow of air.

i can't stop worrying about life, even though people are telling me to stop. even i am telling myself to stop, but i can't shake it off. why?

he would dream for a chance, and when it comes he would get scared of the risks and he would stop.


sometimes, it feels like i am floating
- unsure and fragile;
like stepping on something that is too soft that it is unable to support my weight.







i don't know what to do. literally, and seriously.



and my father just jokingly said, "get a job" and i got
so terribly, terribly hurt;




i'm a bit at loss.
  • Mood: Uneasy
  • Listening to: munashiki nagare - the end of evangelion
  • Reading: patricia highsmith - strangers on a train
  • Playing: dragon quest v
holy shit, a hundred is a lot.
1. Introduction
2. Soft
3. Luxurious
4. Ninja
5. Hair
6. Alone
7. Lonely
8. Love
9. Treasure
10. Holy
11. Pet
12. Heaven
13. Smile
14. Heart broken
15. Embrace
16. Moon
17. Fashion
18. Sorrow
19. Walk
20. Jealous
21. Warm
22. Umbrella
23. Flower
24. Sweet
25. Baby
26. Cat
27. Hamster
28. Butterfly
29. I can't
30. Angel
31. Innocence
32. Tears
33. Ribbon
34. Rainbow
35. Rain
36. Affair
37. Belief
38. Milk
39. Family
40. Friends
41. Memories
42. Food
43. Fragile
44. Life
45. Candy
46. Hallucination
47. Pain
48. Silence
49. Forget me not
50. Box
51. Gift
52. Blessing
53. Shadow
54. Abstract
55. Fur
56. Pirate
57. Longing
58. Fan
59. Kiss
60. Fantasy
61. Dream
62. Nightmare
63. Song
64. Lovebird
65. Romantic
66. Juice
67. Waiting
68. Relax
69. Bath
70. Job
71. Magic
72. Christmas
73. Stripes
74. Frills
75. Huge
76. Feathers
77. Complicated
78. Neglected
79. Kill
80. Rose
81. Garden
82. Marionette
83. Doll
84. Cute
85. Princess
86. Twins
87. Vacation
88. Beach
89. Time
90. Minions
91. Forbidden
92. Beautiful
93. Bride
94. Wedding
95. Ring
96. Rich
97. Faith
98. Interest
99. Tea
100. Eternal

the question is whether i'd have enough patience to do all of them or not.

i'll update this entry everytime i'm done with anything :] keep me motivated when i stop, please? lol
  • Mood: Bemused
  • Reading: patricia highsmith - strangers on a train
  • Playing: dragon quest v
my scanner died. or is dying.

simply put: i can't scan right now.

;_;

....

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
this means i have to photograph my drawings DX
  • Mood: Agony
  • Playing: dragon quest v
i often thought that people
wouldn't like me the first time
they get to know me.

i always have a vague notion that
i am not at all a very likable person,
albeit if in a pinch i can make myself one.

i am a professional liar.

most people couldn't differ
whether i'm lying or not ;
they couldn't really tell
but they trust me anyways.

i wonder why.

have you ever wondered why
some people like you very much?
i do find myself amusing
for me, but that's called
narcissism.

what i really want to know is my charm.

do i even have one?
i have no idea.

so far, people who dated me never
really told me what they particularly
like about me.
and i have this vague thought that
i bet it is not a physical thing.

because i'm not pretty.
and it makes me wonder, wonder, wonder.

let's talk about something else.

i tend to have difficulties on expressing
my emotions by words.
i just couldn't find the right words, right time.

and i end up making a shameful mess.

or breaking hearts.

(i'm a cruel, horrible person.
i'm also a coward who's too scared to take risks of losing someone.
i'm a pathetic person who's too afraid to lose, to make commitments
because of the fear of breaking it.)
  • Mood: Screwed
  • Listening to: chrono trigger soundtrack
  • Playing: chrono trigger
  • Eating: i decided to stop it
  • Drinking: cold water
- from two into one, and i realized that
i am left alone

what is it for today's dinner?

the air is cold, my toes are numb.
my heart is going thump-thump-thump,
and usually at times like these, a dark and warm figure will show up
and embrace me closely.

so i wait,
and wait

and

w
a
i
t
;

the familiar figure never came.


the small screen highlights the contour of my face, my fingers punching the buttons.
my eyes are fixed on the little pixelated heroes fighting dragons.
i set the volume to its highest and i turn off my air con.

i wonder why my toes are still cold. i slip them under the covers,
but it never gets better.


the air is cold and heavy and suffocates me.
there is a lump in my throat and i can't let out any voice.


so i smile.

and

that

is

it
.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: ninomiya kazunari - kako
  • Playing: chrono trigger
  • Eating: i decided to stop it
period
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Playing: shin megami tensei - devil survivor
this post is empty. babble all the way you want. spam the comment with anything. i don't really care. my head's all foggy.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: ninomiya kazunari - yume
  • Reading: reflections in the mirror
  • Watching: dreams
  • Playing: my toes
  • Drinking: cointreau
Been thinking about this for some time and I saw the same question in one of ~Visceralmilk's drawings





Why doesn't deviantART has the category for "EROTICA" in drawing?




I need that you knowwwwww, and no, not because I'm a pervert but all I draw is man kissing and giving head to each other mmmmmmm and some other porny stuff like that. I seriously can't be saved in that part.
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: Arashi - truth
  • Eating: UGH I'M FULL.
Stolen from :iconratsamsa:
And I'm pimping Matt: [link]

ALPHABET MEME. WHEEE.

A
- Available: Sort of. Come here Darlings I'll make you feel like you're in heaven.
- Age: 20
- Annoyance: Waking up from a sleep
- Allergic: Noooooone. NONE. YAY.
- Animal: cats, jellyfishes, snails, dogs and pandas and ugh.
- Actor: DAVID BOWIE. He's not an actor, right, I know. Ninomiya Kazunari? Actually no. I'll stick to Bowie.

B
- Beer: I don't really like it
- Birthday: June 8th
- Best Friend: There's this good man I'd love for all eternity
- Body Part on opposite/same sex: EYES. *pokes*
- Best feeling in the world: Beating up Richie Blackmoore in Castlevania Order of Ecclesia
- Blind or Deaf: Deaf. BECAUSE I WANT TO SEE *wink wink*
- Best weather: Rain rainy rain rain.
- Been in Love: *smug smirk*
- Been bitched about?: You think?
- Been on stage?: Yeah.
- Believe in yourself?: More than anyone else.
- Believe in life on other planets: Yes. Possibilities, Y/Y?
- Believe in miracles: That’s just a word for a highly improbable good thing that happens anyway. (Haha I love this answer and I agree, Mattyrat).
- Believe in Magic: Because it can't be explained in science, that's why I do.
- Believe in God: It's human-made.
- Believe in Satan: Another human-made thingy.
- Believe in Santa: No, Mom told me the truth when I was about 5.
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: Yes, they're around.
- Believe in Evolution: Yes.

C
- Car: I don't drive.
- Candy: Don't really like it.
- Cake or pie: Cake. CAKE. Because I like cute things, you see :3

D
- Day or Night: Night. No real preference on this one, though.
- Dream vehicle: Hm, I'd rather walk. I'm primitive like that.
- Danced: I tried my best.
- Danced in the rain?: Would love to.
- Danced in the middle of the street?: I think I haven't. Maybe I should?

E
- Eggs: Yum.
- Eyes: Biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig
- Everyone has: to do this. MWAHAHA. No, I'm kidding.
- Ever failed a class?: No. Yay!

F
- First crush: He's in Japan now, doing photography. Jun, I'm confessing my secret! Now the whole world knows! XD (he does have a dA account. hihi)
- Full name: Naomi Dame Wulandea Napitupulu. Long, ne?
- First thoughts waking up: I don't think. I zombiewalk to toilet.
- Food: Veggies.

G
- Greatest Fear: Not being able to draw anymore
- Gum: I don't really chew this stuff, either.
- Get along with your parents?: Pretty much.

H
- Hair color: Currently blonde, soon to be either red or blue or red and blue because I love Ohmiya that much.
- Height: 158cm I'm tiny
- Happy: Yeah
- Holidays: are most welcomed!
- How do you want to die: In the middle of sex because that would leave angsty memory to my partner YESH
- Hate: Cockroaches

I
- Idiot: Might be you. (Indeed Mattyratty mwahahaha)

J
- Jewelry: All my 7 earrings. And... necklaces sometimes.
- Job: Illustrator please. Right now I don't have any XD

K
- Kids: are everywhere
- Kickboxing or karate: Neither.
- Keep a journal?: I have like... Four now.

L
- Longest Car Ride: From Jakarta to Bali.
- Love: Yeah yeah.
- Letter: It's cute I think.
- Laughed so hard you cried: FEELS GOOD.
- Love at first sight: Somehow I believe it dammit.

M
- Milk flavour: Give it to me straight, doc.
- Movie: Rosemary's Baby. It explains my mad crushes with girls with pixie haircut.
- Mooned anyone?: Yes.
- Marriage: Not interested.
- Motion sickness?: None at all. Yeehaw.
- McD's or BK: I don't eat those~

N
- Number of siblings: One brother under my pressure HAHAHA.
- Number of piercings: Eight all ears, I want more though.
- Number: 13 because it's an odd number

O
- Overused phrases: "And then what?"
- One wish: To see L'Arc~en~Ciel concert before I die
- One phobia: Clowns/ cockroaches - can't decide.

P
- Place you'd like to live: Finland. Or Iceland. Finland, I think.
- Pepsi/Coke: I don't drink sodas that much

Q
- Quail: is cute
- Questionnaires: are my guilty pleasure

R
- Reason to cry: It's either staring at computer screen for far too long, or watching sappy Japanese dramas with certain idol(s) starring
- Reality T.V.: sucks ass
- Radio station: I don't listen to radio. SO MANY THINGS I DON'T DO, NE?
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: I can! *does

S
- Song: Please play Ninomiya Kazunari's Gimmick Game at my funeral.
- Shoe size: I'm not too sure about it since it always varies
- Sushi: YUM. <3
- Skipped school: Well, yes.
- Slept outside: Under a poncho, and it was raining.
- Seen a dead body?: Yeah. Like, four? Five? More.
- Skinny dipped?: Nah
- Shower daily?: Not really
- Sing well?: IDK but people say my singing is OK so yeah
- In the shower?: No
- Swear?: :3 ?
- Stuffed animals?: I have them too
- Single/Group dates: Let's. Dates are fun.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries
- Scientists need to invent: Warp portals

T
- Time for bed: When I feel like it
- Thunderstorms: rarely happens, but I like it.
- Touch your tongue to your nose?: Damn it I can't.

U
- Unpredictable: Well?
- Understanding?: Probably?

V
- Vegetable you hate: Hmmm
- Vegetable you love: Broccoli potatoes carrots tomatoes almost all of them MUNCH
- Vacation spot: My bed

W
- Weakness: 5 Japanese men dancing and hugging each other with sequined jackets and glittery pants
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: My darling Atrey
- Worst weather: humid heat indeed!
- Walk with a book on your head?: I can

X
- X-Rays: I'd like to try it

Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: is my current favorite bright color. And my friend once said I'm yellow in color psychology, wahoo.

Z
- Zoo animal: Waterlings and HELLO, TIGERS. <33
- Zodiac sign: Gemini


Fuck, that took a long time to do.
  • Mood: I Have To Pee
  • Listening to: Dad's computer is singing something from the 60s
  • Eating: cheese balls
I love to write.

Whatever it is, I just love to write.

It's always been much easier for me to
convey meanings nonverbally, since I am not so good
with verbal communications, and I tend to
use other methods - like
touch,
gestures
and
such.

Sometimes I like to re-read my writings,
sometimes not.

Sometimes I feel like I have written something great,
but most of the time I think they aren't that good.

I have no idea.

Like right now, as I am typing this
I feel like I am typing something that is loud and clear,
but later on I would see so many holes here and there,
just further evidence of how vague I really am.

A friend once said she likes my eloquencies.
I... Still don't think that I'm eloquent.

There are doubts everywhere. That's me.

I can be so many things at once.
I don't pretend, I don't act it out - I turn into them. I be them.
I have been so many people, so many identities, so many personas.

And I still keep on changing, sometimes frequently, sometimes not.
Sometimes it bugs other people but I don't feel bad because hey
I didn't do anything wrong.

There are so many things I would like to say.
There are so many emotions I would like to express.
I can't really explain it, but it's like having something buzzing inside your head,
and you desperately want to get it out but you just simply can't.
It's not very annoying, though.
But there are times when they get so loud inside and
I just have to let it out.

Like now, perhaps. ?
Maybe. It's possible.

(Oh you see, I love monologues too. I ask and I answer.)

But I can handle it.




And so here's some
pimping time.

LiveJournal

Add away, fangirls or not.


You're loved.
  • Mood: Questionable
  • Watching: Smile
  • Eating: chewing gum; I didn't brush my teeth today
I'm now posting from my dad's laptop.




My desktop PC is most likely to be broken.





I haven't back up all the data in there.


YABAIIII. PHOTOS AND SCANS AND DIGITAL IMAGINGS. ALKSDJAD.





PS. Anyone who could get me Patricia Highsmith's book Strangers On A Train in English edition for Christmas would be loved by me for all eternity. I would kiss you like none other had, serously, I would be thankful for all my life.

:heart:

Gotta go now, I have an appointment tomorrow.
  • Mood: Terror
  • Listening to: Blondie - Heart of Glass
  • Watching: VS Arashi #069
  • Playing: your toes
  • Eating: you, darling, y-o-u <3
Hi hi hi droogs!

So how's everyone doing? ^^

I myself ain't doing
that good;
I'm in the middle of a mild crisis and
well, guess kinda stressed because of
my college final project?
(yeah it's still happening).

Time sure goes malenky bit skorry eh.
Rather surprising at times, but manageable still.



Anyways I miss drawing for myself.
All these busy days and I only draw for school assignments ;A;
LAME. anditkindamakesmesad, really.

Well I hope I'd get time to draw for myself soon... :heart:

See you (hopefully) soon, droogs.


Arashians, I have a livejournal account! [link] 8)
Let's share our fandom and create storm throughout the world!
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Ninomiya Kazunari - Yume
  • Watching: Kiiroi Namida
I'm sorry for being very inactive.

I currently have no time
to make drawings or photographs for myself -
Sorry.
I'm in the middle of internship
& mini collection execution and all.
*sigh*

And in my free time, I tend to take a rest.
Sleeping, watching something, etc.



Oh boy.
Life sure is busy eh, I don't even know what to type here.


Yesterday, I had a small trunk show with my college friends in Plaza Semanggi.
It was nice, although cramped (the venue was), but the show was a success.
The model who wore my outfit looked great in it - and she looked totally GREAT
after she put on make-up.
She was a bit bitching at first, she might be bored.

By the way, I have this account too: [link]
YAY LOSERS LIKE ME, WHO HAS NO LIFE O_O hahahahaha.




... Fuck, I still don't know what to type here. I'd get off now and back to my long-postponed J-drama session. Next time, I'd post something better here. Not something shitty like this one.

Mwa! :heart:
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: my dog playing with my brother
  • Reading: homoerotic fanfiction <3 HAHA
  • Watching: Stand Up!!!
  • Eating: 3rd cup of yogurt

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